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*drags nails over her scalp*

Sat Jul 11, 2009, 5:49 PM
  • Mood: Tired
  • Listening to: power drills and hammers...
  • Reading: the label on the back of a paint can...
  • Watching: big burly he-man men pull walls down...
  • Playing: Huh?
  • Eating: sunflower seeds
  • Drinking: water


Ung, I'm so mad at myself. I screwed up in the dumbest way possible and I didn't even know until recently. I'm correcting things now. Just bear with me for this next week. I'd have known this sooner if I could have gotten to the library to check messeages and emails. I am SO sorry anyone this effected.

I read notes... Guh... I'm ashamed... I'll get to respond in the next day or two but I ask for at least this next week (renovations at my new place *___*...). This is a generic auto-response and kinda impersonal BUT I will get back to you personally. "First, I'm not upset. I understand completely and if I plan to be a pro I need to be more focused and disciplined. I apologize again (this is probably the 20th time...) about the delays. I need to learn to work AROUND all of other things. I should have tried WAY harder and if you are final on your decision there's no hard feelings on my end and I appreciate that you helped me when you did :). Thanks for understanding and again for your patience."

LOL, oh man, I feel like a loser just typing that. But hey, gotta own up to my mistakes and excuses.

Oh yeah, Advice to anyone, male or female looking for an apartment; don't settle for just anywhere AND don't let them pull that not enough income/you're single shit on you. WHO makes $30k a year? The people who are RENTING out the places don't even make that?! I pretty much got told because I'm female and have no man I'm at more risk of being late on rent/having domestic issues not associated with someone in a stable relationship/and I may be a liability in a building that doesn't have secure doors at all hours of the night. Because OTHER bitches are letting their drunk/high boyfriends into the building. I am apparently a statistic. YEAH. Mind you most of the property owners were MALE and had to comment on me being 'attractive and smart' and get their egos stepped on when I didn't respond to their come on's. I'm applying for an apartment, not a soulmate! So this apartment hunt was a nightmare-ish learning experience :D. The things you learn as you get older. I'm 25 now too... Guh.  

The only new art I have is commission art >__>;;; I'm still not going to post anything until I get those emailed out and all finished. Why does anyone even watch me? LOL!


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Gabbi Featured By Owner Aug 5, 2009  Professional Digital Artist
I hope things will work out for you!
To bad I live in the wrong country, then maybe I could have helped with the apartment thing. Or maybe you've already fixed it?

Good luck with the commissions!
I miss your art here on dA :heart:
TwistToReality Featured By Owner Jul 31, 2009  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Sue them for sexism and harassment, then you can just buy yourself your own mansion >.>;
Kinagaki Featured By Owner Jul 28, 2009   Digital Artist
Ugh, that sucks about your apartment hunting. Hope you land something soon.
Also, have you had the chance to start on my commission yet, if only a sketch? I'd just like to see some WIPs. :)

Take it easy, and I hope things work out for you soon!
LostKitten Featured By Owner Jul 15, 2009  Hobbyist
Ugh apartment life sucks. So much. I have no clue what the first part of your journal was about, but OK. :D

Kick those guys in their jimmy next time they say stupid things. Then they won't consider you a liability for getting hurt. :giggle:
No-Nami Featured By Owner Jul 14, 2009  Student General Artist

But, yeah - I call shenanigans on that crap about you being a liability because you're single/a woman. I know plenty of single women who can still kick arse with a nine-iron at hand. They should be worried about the skanky hoes who bring in a different guy every week. One day they're gonna get in a fight with their baby's daddy and VOILA - some bitch gets capped.

Another statistic.

I feel your pain about the commissions. >< I'm sorry you've gotten those notes. But, I look patiently forward for when I get to see mine because I know you do amazing work and it will be worth every penny. :heart:
Bluegothika Featured By Owner Jul 13, 2009
thats so rediculous really thats a idiotic statistic. oh and its no problem about getting to your art. hope you find your apartment.
Jennaluna Featured By Owner Jul 13, 2009
OK, sweetheart...take a DEEP breath :D!
You know that old song that talks about "everything is gonna be alright":music:? Well, corny- but true.
I'm sorry you were abused by those yahoo's. I'd try to rationalize it, but the honest truth is some people don't know which end their head is on...and which end their a*s is. And they tend to think with the wrong one.
Your work is beautiful (both in content and execution), and I wouldn't admire it (and vous) if I didn't think you worked hard at it.
Take care of yourself...those blonde babes don't draw themselves! It takes ladies like you and me to do it.
:hug: ~Jenna
Paramnesia Featured By Owner Jul 13, 2009
[i]WHO makes $30k a year? [i]

Depends on age, the state you live in, and education. [link] Artists probably fall on the low end of things; they don't call em "starving" for nothing.

Can you get a cosigner? [link] That's what I did until I got a full time job after college.
Xatrioxic Featured By Owner Jul 12, 2009  Professional Traditional Artist
I was afraid you might have forgotten my picture i had wanted in support for your MIA tablet =/ I put it on the note line what picture i had ordered in the was about 3 months ago

A little bit of Sunshine print/qty 1 was my order.

Best of luck with the apt stuff...i know how tough it is
AlanRalph Featured By Owner Jul 12, 2009  Professional General Artist
alyx-sama Featured By Owner Jul 12, 2009
O_O I think you would be more reliable as you wouldn't have relationship drawa >_>
ladyglass Featured By Owner Jul 12, 2009  Hobbyist Artist
Apartment hunting can be the worst. Good luck sweetie :huggle:
twistedscorpio Featured By Owner Jul 12, 2009  Hobbyist Digital Artist
hey I hear you about the apartment thing, they told us once they didn't want to rent to me and my roommate because we were both girls.
PocketFairyChibi Featured By Owner Jul 12, 2009  Hobbyist Digital Artist
We love you thats why :3
Ryuyujin Featured By Owner Jul 12, 2009  Professional General Artist
*laughs* Lady, I've told you time and again I'm not to concerned about the commissions or ever getting anything back for all the little donations. Hell I'm going through the new job/apartment hunting crap myself right now. Take several deep breaths and center yourself. Don't need you stressing so bad you keel over. ;P

Good advise by the way. I haven't run into it myself as of yet but I'll watch out for it. My big problem is a have a cat and a chinchilla. THATS what has been barring most renters from accepting me so far.
seasonofclarity Featured By Owner Jul 12, 2009
Good luck on the apartment stuff.

Heh, I'm 25 too. Or close enough.
Kaiazes Featured By Owner Jul 12, 2009  Student Traditional Artist
Yeah, you've always got to be aware of the people who are selling you something. For people who make more money based on how much they sell, they sure are picky about it.

And I watch you because you rock! :headbang:
chaoie Featured By Owner Jul 12, 2009
oh my, what happened my dear; is everything alright? :noes:
miaow Featured By Owner Jul 12, 2009  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Oh wow this is the first time I hear of such discrimination when it comes to apartment hunting o__O;; Discrimination towards single ladies!!

Good thing I don't have the need to look for my own apartment. (yet!) *lives comfortably with family, workplace just 30min drive away* No man to move out with either, but I do get those 'you won't grow up until you leave your parent's house' talks. Life is complicated.
Nantonaku Featured By Owner Jul 12, 2009  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Gawd! I hate looking for new places to live... and am likely to take the first thing that has the basics, still I'm just renting. I guess I've been lucky in the places I've gone to. ...mind you I probs wouldn't pick up those kinda vibes from men. Naive anybody?

Good luck Nashya! Don't let them get to you :rage: rawr!
nemurin Featured By Owner Jul 12, 2009
Oooh thanks for the pointers on apartments - I might have to move out this year and though getting a student home is different, I'm still going to keep it in mind.

Good luck fixing... whatever you did wrong that I don't seem to have understood. 8D
nervene Featured By Owner Jul 12, 2009
If it means anything, I'd totally let you rent from me if I owned an apartment complex.
operakitten Featured By Owner Jul 12, 2009
Yeah, been there with the apartment thing. I'm living with my brother right now, which helps, but I've had the hardest time trying to find decent housing as a single young person.

One thing that you can do is to wear a suit and carry a briefcase when you go apartment hunting. They make very nice women's suits nowadays, and if you don't have one, trust me, you need one! I've had a lot better luck going in there looking very professional and business-like, whether it's apartment-hunting, job-hunting, or just a meeting with an asshole professor. :P
EiceBleu Featured By Owner Jul 12, 2009  Hobbyist General Artist
'Round here the only requirement is that you make 3 times the rent in a month, so about 21k a year--and we're a college town too. Two junior colleges--Texas College (sucks), Tyler Junior College (good)--and we have a University of Texas at Tyler for our real college. We don't really have a housing problem here--UTT is pretty on top of things.
dinshino Featured By Owner Jul 11, 2009
That's discrimination and grounds for a civil suit. Report their arse!
layilia Featured By Owner Jul 11, 2009  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Yeah, I have been there and heard that crap. Good luck with everything, and hope everything else is going well.

Love your work, and I am sure that everything will begin to look up for you now. :D :D :D
arania Featured By Owner Jul 11, 2009  Professional General Artist
*Nods* Even with the unfortunate issues that have come up for you, I have to say that you are still better at posting in your journal from time to time to let people who have commissioned you know that you still are thinking about the commissions and we're on your radar. The only thing that really unnerves me is when I don't hear at all from an artist I've paid money for months and months at a time, they don't post online, etc...
Nashya Featured By Owner Jul 11, 2009
Honestly if i could i'd be on here everyday spamming with updates about everyone's commission status i just have such limited time with the internet. this last time was a total fluke though. I'm telling ou the universe gives me a bone then takes it away before i start chewing... my DSL (XD;; i know dsl) was running but my brothers lame house had no working phone jacks... *sigh*. BUT expect more from me. If only a star next to your name meaning *finished* XD;;;.
arania Featured By Owner Jul 11, 2009  Professional General Artist
Aich - sounds like one of those frustrating times where if it's not one thing it's another >.< I hope that you're able to get your net problems (and others!) solved soon - I know how nuts it makes me to lose access to the internet reliably even for a short period of time.
And that sounds like a decent system - not necessarily having to note everyone individually - but keeping a kind of running log in a central location of your work list - I think that would probably give a lot of commissioners sound mind to see a public to-do list to know that they are on you radar - assuming you have the time <3.
Tunatunatuna Featured By Owner Jul 11, 2009  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Just so you know, if you are male and single/not rich, you get turned down for housing a lot too, because they think you are going to be that drunk loser boyfriend...

But yeah, it still sucks that they treated you that way - there's no excuse for their actions - it was prejudiced and sleazy.

...and, like many have said, we watch because the waits are always well-worth it - our patience is amply rewarded with beautiful art.
JoniVera Featured By Owner Jul 11, 2009  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Good luck on that, never heard of an apartment manager doing that. It's all based on credit around here, at least the good ones.

Looks can be deceiving too..there is a complex not too far away that looks very nice and has it's own hair studio, unfortunately ghetto, street kid wannabes roam the place and break into everything. Makes me appreciate my bare bones place more. =P
don4 Featured By Owner Jul 11, 2009  Student
great more adult horror stories, i don't want to graudate now.
Cola82 Featured By Owner Jul 11, 2009  Professional Digital Artist
Yay sexism. What total bullshit.

Anyway, we watch you because it costs us nothing and we're often well rewarded by your incredible work.
13lue13lood80 Featured By Owner Jul 11, 2009
Dam men! & stereotypes!.....How dare they! D:<

Anyways, much luck on your search for an apartment! :hug:
I was reading my MangaKA American book today & I think you're just amazing! I love your art! :heart:
Hubby-N-Dad Featured By Owner Jul 11, 2009
Good luck w/everything... 25 seems like so long ago for me... (I just turned 37). Other than this garbage, I hope you've been well.
Nytrinhia Featured By Owner Jul 11, 2009  Professional Digital Artist
Wow, sorry to hear that.

I watch you because I started reading your webcomic :3 Btw, are you ever planning on going back to that? XD Now I watch you because I think you do fantastic art, and even if you don't upload something every day (Heck, I don't upload every month, only now I'm in a tournament, so I kind of have to- but anyway) I'm always really impressed and inspired when I see the new stuff you do. Plus I watch so many people it's nice to watch someone who doesn't upload a bunch of stuff. I'd rather watch someone who uploads an amazing piece of work every six months, than someone who uploads everyday with stuff that really isn't worth looking at.
EmCaCo Featured By Owner Jul 11, 2009
Ugh, that SUCKS. Society really hasn't changed all that much since the 50's, has it? ;_;
I'm so glad for my first-time apartment-finding experience. The place is run by some very nice middle-aged women, one of whom bakes cookies daily and set them out in the office. It makes a very good first impression. C: It's a small college town, though, so everything's sheltered like whoa...Finally hitting the real world will be interesting. :/
aetherchild Featured By Owner Jul 11, 2009  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
So can't wait to see the commissions :D
Seriously-serino777 Featured By Owner Jul 11, 2009
I watch you because I like your art... nay, I love your art, and because I look up to your awesome skills with your art. >.> 'course I dun have a tablet or anything. ^^;
Grigori77 Featured By Owner Jul 11, 2009  Professional General Artist
;) It's cool, we can wait. Still haven't been watchin' you long so I still haven't got through all your OLD STUFF yet ...
nightmaresky Featured By Owner Jul 11, 2009
Dude, take your time and get life together. You lively-hood comes first, art second. I know how it is to try to find an place! I was 18 and I lied on my income! (Someone at work lied for me.) It is BS that they want you to have a income of 30K a year. V_V; But that's just how it is.
draiad Featured By Owner Jul 11, 2009   Digital Artist
I think as long as we all know stuffs being worked on /will get worked on at some point, we'd be happy. At least that's enough for me. I know people have other issues with their life and I'm willing to wait around that. Unfortunately there are some people who can't figure out why it's not done instantly and have no other thing to do but bitch and moan about it.

And while waiting can be frustrating (especially when it involves debating over whether to ask for money back or stick it out and just wait.) I don't usually mind. Unfortunately though I'm the kind of person who feels guilty for asking about something. Because I feel like somehow I come across as a complete ass when I start asking "When can I expect to see this" or "it's been so long is it started/done/whatever?" Especially when I know how slow I can be myself.

Buh, but I watch you because I absolutely love your art, and while I wait I don't mind because I'm willing to do so. The only thing that'd piss me off is if the person I commissioned vanished and I never saw my money again, or the art that went towards it ^^;

Hopefully things clear up for you though. I'm in the process of hopefully getting myself an apartment and I know even just the looking can be a real stressful job. Especially when you work on top of that.
Schreibaby-Zephyr Featured By Owner Jul 11, 2009  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Dude that effin sucks! :pissedoff:

Shows how damn misogynistic property managers are! As long as you're making good money it's good, not whether or not you're in a relationship.

Hell, if I was the one running the apartments I'd care more about whether the water/electric/property people are getting their cut for supplying you with those necessities.

*throws cinder block at the guy's window*
Jchild Featured By Owner Jul 11, 2009  Student Digital Artist
:) Your art is quite beautiful. And your tutorials very helpful.

For curiosities sake- that tutorial that got published. I bought the book but have since lost it in the moves across the country that I've made. Do you have that particular tutorial up anywhere?
UndergroundRacer57 Featured By Owner Jul 11, 2009
I watch you because you're brilliant and I fecking love your art. When I met you at Detour this last spring you were so kind! :D It made me enjoy your posts all the more.

I have a couple of friends that were apartment hunting when the spring semester was near finished. They had a hell of a time with it too. D:
niolynn Featured By Owner Jul 11, 2009
Oh wow good luck with the apartment situation =/ I'm 19 but I've gone apartment hunting before; absolutely no fun. :hug:
Blak-lotus Featured By Owner Jul 11, 2009
isn't it a little easier in a college town? b/c there's an abundance?
niolynn Featured By Owner Jul 11, 2009
depends; if you're a college student, you have to settle cause you're just a college student. If you're an adult w/degree, you have more freedom in decision since you have the income to have choices. Most people with degrees dont stay in the college town though o_O''
Blak-lotus Featured By Owner Jul 11, 2009
but that's where so many jobs are. why would you leave?!?
niolynn Featured By Owner Jul 11, 2009
well it depends on what your major is, what you enjoy doing... most of my friends who went to UTA (University of Texas at Austin) have no intention of staying in Austin. There are bigger, better things.
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